Purgatory

I have calmed down but now I'm philosophical. First off I'm agnostic but I like to dwell on morality and religion.

We will all be judged? But what does that mean though? Is there anything between good and evil?

What if your a moral person but you just lose it. You fully know your going to commit a mortal sin but you just can't hold back? What if you knew that no matter what your would commit the sin over and over, you couldn't hold back? If you commit a sin in your heart then your guilty without doing it.

If you believe in good and evil... Kill a person, kill fifty, a thousand, a million? If you believe then is there a point of no return? What happens when you know your evil and there is no salvation? Do you embrace evil? Can you love god and fight against him?