New Wiki - Education

I always think up stuff and shortly there after other people come to the same conclusions but implement them. With the take off of Wikipedia I think the time has come for an educational wiki to take off. It would probably focus on the sciences and mathimatics as they are less controversial. A wiki is a completely different animal than a standard text book being that it's multi authored and it's one huge hypertext document spanning all topics in a field of study. Instead of a textbook on chemestry it would be more like an encyclopedia of chemistry but far more readable. It's a great way to learn a topic as it's non linear.

The Female Species

Time and time again I am disipointed. Why do I even bear hope... I'm probably the only man in LA that actually believes in soul mates. True love shouldn't take much effort, it should just come easily and naturally. The right place at the right time, etc..., and just take off like a wild fire. I am such an a f'ing fatalist. To be accepted and loved as I am...

Let me just say it; women at least in LA are total sluts. They falls for words instead of actions and intent. Total sellouts.

I doubt I really believe it but friends tell me all the time I could be such a total player. So why? Why am I so female? Why do I actually lust only for love? Why does the mere thought of kissing turn me on? Why am I what most women pretentiously portray themselves as? Why am I so cursed?

Stuffed

God I'm stuffed. I had a couple stiff drinks but mostly I've just been eating all day. Must have spent like $40 or so. But I feel so much better after last night. Why is everyone out to tick me off all of a sudden? All I want is hard satisfying work, good friends that don't overreact to stupid things you say sometimes, and a nice girl to wrap my arms around as I fall asleep. Is that too much to ask for?

The Good Girl/Bad Girl Bullshit...

I'm probably the only guy in the world that thinks this is stupid. I'm probably also the only guy in LA that isn't screwing women left and right and that wants a relationship; someone that likes me for me (ok that and screwing like rabbits every other day). If your a guy out there screwing around even a little bit you know that women have screwed around no matter what they say. Every woman has a few wild periods. A woman that claims to have never had a one night stand is an assumed liar or is working from a deficit in my book, better if she said nothing on the subject. But for some reason that lie turns on most men and makes them want to pursue a woman for a relationship.

Unlike most men I can't divorce my emotional feeling from my sexual desire. I can be intimate with someone I don't care for but it makes me care for them. As I start feeling emotionally attached to a woman my sexual desire for her steadily increases to the point where I feel like I'll go crazy just being around her. Yet I can go without sex for long periods of time if I'm not involved with anyone.

Unless a woman shows a mutual interest in me from the first time I show interest it's like a million points deducted as far prospects for a long term relationship; from that point on it's just a casual thing. The last thing I want to think about as far as someone I love is that she screwed other men at first sight but I wasn't good enough. If she's really pretty or interesting I might play the game a while but all games get tired; any chance for anything real ended the moment the game started.

Granted I won't ask a woman the first night and I've never had a one night stand (it's believable in my case since only an idiot male like myself would admit that publicly). Flings yes, one night stands - no. No wonder the majority of relationships are disastrous, it's all based on lies. A woman makes up her mind roughly five minutes after meeting you. If it's serious she'll go for it, if not she's just playing games. Most men like that game. But I don't...