New Wiki - Education

I always think up stuff and shortly there after other people come to the same conclusions but implement them. With the take off of Wikipedia I think the time has come for an educational wiki to take off. It would probably focus on the sciences and mathimatics as they are less controversial. A wiki is a completely different animal than a standard text book being that it's multi authored and it's one huge hypertext document spanning all topics in a field of study. Instead of a textbook on chemestry it would be more like an encyclopedia of chemistry but far more readable. It's a great way to learn a topic as it's non linear.

The Female Species

Time and time again I am disipointed. Why do I even bear hope... I'm probably the only man in LA that actually believes in soul mates. True love shouldn't take much effort, it should just come easily and naturally. The right place at the right time, etc..., and just take off like a wild fire. I am such an a f'ing fatalist. To be accepted and loved as I am...

Let me just say it; women at least in LA are total sluts. They falls for words instead of actions and intent. Total sellouts.

I doubt I really believe it but friends tell me all the time I could be such a total player. So why? Why am I so female? Why do I actually lust only for love? Why does the mere thought of kissing turn me on? Why am I what most women pretentiously portray themselves as? Why am I so cursed?

Stuffed

God I'm stuffed. I had a couple stiff drinks but mostly I've just been eating all day. Must have spent like $40 or so. But I feel so much better after last night. Why is everyone out to tick me off all of a sudden? All I want is hard satisfying work, good friends that don't overreact to stupid things you say sometimes, and a nice girl to wrap my arms around as I fall asleep. Is that too much to ask for?

The Good Girl/Bad Girl Bullshit...

I'm probably the only guy in the world that thinks this is stupid. I'm probably also the only guy in LA that isn't screwing women left and right and that wants a relationship; someone that likes me for me (ok that and screwing like rabbits every other day). If your a guy out there screwing around even a little bit you know that women have screwed around no matter what they say. Every woman has a few wild periods. A woman that claims to have never had a one night stand is an assumed liar or is working from a deficit in my book, better if she said nothing on the subject. But for some reason that lie turns on most men and makes them want to pursue a woman for a relationship.

Unlike most men I can't divorce my emotional feeling from my sexual desire. I can be intimate with someone I don't care for but it makes me care for them. As I start feeling emotionally attached to a woman my sexual desire for her steadily increases to the point where I feel like I'll go crazy just being around her. Yet I can go without sex for long periods of time if I'm not involved with anyone.

Unless a woman shows a mutual interest in me from the first time I show interest it's like a million points deducted as far prospects for a long term relationship; from that point on it's just a casual thing. The last thing I want to think about as far as someone I love is that she screwed other men at first sight but I wasn't good enough. If she's really pretty or interesting I might play the game a while but all games get tired; any chance for anything real ended the moment the game started.

Granted I won't ask a woman the first night and I've never had a one night stand (it's believable in my case since only an idiot male like myself would admit that publicly). Flings yes, one night stands - no. No wonder the majority of relationships are disastrous, it's all based on lies. A woman makes up her mind roughly five minutes after meeting you. If it's serious she'll go for it, if not she's just playing games. Most men like that game. But I don't...

Purgatory

I have calmed down but now I'm philosophical. First off I'm agnostic but I like to dwell on morality and religion.

We will all be judged? But what does that mean though? Is there anything between good and evil?

What if your a moral person but you just lose it. You fully know your going to commit a mortal sin but you just can't hold back? What if you knew that no matter what your would commit the sin over and over, you couldn't hold back? If you commit a sin in your heart then your guilty without doing it.

If you believe in good and evil... Kill a person, kill fifty, a thousand, a million? If you believe then is there a point of no return? What happens when you know your evil and there is no salvation? Do you embrace evil? Can you love god and fight against him?

I'm homicidal

I've lost faith in my fellow man. I've given myself a week timeout so I don't kill anyone. My mind keeps drifting off imagining various torture senerios for the culpret...

Taking a deep breath. Repeat after me, civilized people don't castrate others, cililized people don't castrate...

To be civilized or not to be civilized... that is the question!

Yay though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will feal no evil... and all that other bullshit.

Can't I love those that do me wrong after I castrate them?

Oh where oh where is a woman to remind me of all the nice beautiful things in life... A charming thing that with just a smile can humble me and make me forget all the bad things...

Tech - AMD 4x4 Sockets - The Answer to the Cell Processor

I've been reading up on processor architectures today and it has me thinking about the new 4x4 socket motherboards. Essentially these are duel processor motherboards. For games, which is the majority of it's market and gaurantees it to sell, it will be used to support 4 cores and 4 graphics cards. Hence the design name 4x4.

But I remember in articles AMD citing the possibility of coprocessors such as a physics processors and while nothing prevents third parties from producing such chips I don't really see a large number of possible vendors. But I would bet that AMD itself is going to release a coprossor. And I'm suggesting that that coprocessor is a specific responce to the cell processor. I remember in an article them mentioning the socket as a new vehicle before possibly integrating such functionality directly into it's CPU packages. A coprocessor with a bunch of vector processing units would be a perfect proof of concept as well as giving developers a means to use the technology without AMD commiting an unproven and unused architecture and instruction set into their expensive processor packages.

Vector processing units are called that for lack of a better name because that is their most obvious use, but not their only. They are complete RISC processors in all respects except they are not autonimous and are designed to be controlled by another processor. There are highly optimized though for specific computational operations. For example the cell processor with eight VPU's gives phynominal single precission floating point operations but only only (!) 3 times the preformance with double procission as compared to the main CPU.